Third times the charm?

It is official I am back on the wagon, so to speak.  I have rejoined Weight Watchers.  This is my third time and each time, I did lose weight but I stopped after about 9-12 weeks.  I am really hoping the third time is the charm for me. 

Last night was the meeting.  It was in a portable behind a hospital in their "Education Center."  I am sure that Weight Watchers just rents the space but to me it wasn't very "friendly."  It is in the back of the hospital so it is harder to find than other locations.  And because they must just rent the space for the day, they are not setup with internet to put your information into the system which means that I had to resubmit all of my information even though I am in the "system" from last time.  The worst part though was the hospital smell.  Maybe I have been in too many hospitals or maybe I am just smell sensitive but I do not like that smell. 

Needless to say, the environment was not the best, and then on top of that the leader was not the normal leader.  That means that I do not know if I even like the leader enough to want to come back to that location.  The leader, after your first meeting, is supposed to sit down with you and discuss the program, answer questions, and make you feel like you made the right choice to be there.  This substitute leader started with, "I'll make this quick so we can both leave."  I was barely told the program but was more told to read the information on my own.  What if I don't want to read it?  Or what if I have two children under the age of 4 that take up my every moment and so I actually do not have time to read it?  This is actually my reality but did that matter?  No, not really.  Ugh, I am annoyed by this situation.  Can you tell? 

Last was the group of members.  They loved it, they seemed very supportive of each other and more than one of them said they just felt so good about this group of members.  That was the best part of it, but I am not sure that many of them were making much progress.  I guess they don't have to be making progress, but it would be nice to know that I was with a group that was pushing each other to do their best. 

Overall, even though it is official and even though I REALLY want this time to be different, the beginning was not very positive for me.  Maybe this blog will be the key to what is different.  Or maybe the fact that I do want to be the mom that can not run, or swim, or play alot with my sons because I am either embarrassed or feel physically like I can't do it, will be the motivator this time. Whatever it is, wish me luck, because I have paid my membership and I am in it...again...