Not hungry

How sweet it is to feel satisfied!  Annoyed too but not hungry.  Today is my fifth day back on Weight Watchers, which means I am trying to figure out what food means again.  Having to calculate points is a pain but tracking is very insightful.  Sometimes, I have tracked "everything" on my phone then it is as if I have an ah-ha moment of, "Wait, I also had a nibble of that and a taste of this. Crap, that is more points."  Although tracking is annoying and a bit of a struggle right now, I know in the long run it will pay off and I will get this weight on. 

With that being said the last two days I have not felt hungry.  I was wondering what my next meal would be but that is because I have a habit of eating all the time.  I eat when I am bored.  I eat to reward myself.  I eat when I am frustrated.  I eat and I eat and then I look down and feel disgusted with myself and I eat.  Isn't that a lovely omission.  I am not proud of this fact, but anyone that looks at me, can tell by my size that I eat too much and I exercise too little.

Right now, I am focusing on the eating.  So, I will call this phase one.  And with the new way that the program is set up, and the new apps for my phone, I am feeling success.  Will the scale show it on Monday? I sure as hell hope so because when I am disappointed...I eat.

I found this quote on pinterest and I want to burn it into my mind.  I do not want to be a dog, a bitch sometimes, yes (ha ha), but not a dog.  Don't be a dog!