Not a number

You are not a number.  Your value is not less if you weigh more.  Yet, overweight people are treated differently.  Obese people are looked down upon.  I have heard of studies that talk about how obese people are mistreated.  Have you been treated poorly because you are overweight?  I can't say that I have but I know that I have a different mindset about myself and about other overweight people.  Although I am not proud of it I will think when I see overweight people, "I am not as fat as them."  "Do I look like that?"  "How much does that person weigh? I wonder."

Here is some information I found from one study. 

"Sales clerks tend to subtly discriminate against overweight shoppers but treat them more favorably if they perceive that the individual is trying to lose weight, according to a study by Rice University researchers."

Lovely, so when I am getting food I am getting judged too. (I hope you could hear the sarcasm in my type.)  I often have "diet" food in my cart, but seriously I could have all diet items in my cart and I could still gain weight.  I am overweight because I eat too much and I exercise too little.  It is so simple yet so complex.  I have many reasons why I eat and why I don't exercise, but right now it doesn't matter.  Hopefully I can delve into it someday.

I know I am not a number and my number should not chain me down to my obesity, but that is exactly what I feel.  I am trying so hard to let it go but in my shame of that damn number, I can't even put it on my own blog.  Kind of pathetic.  I will put it up one day, when I feel a bit braver.