Hard control day

Today is a tough one.  I do not want to stop eating and I am feeling overwhelmed.  Sadly, I think it is because I know I will be alone with the boys all day without support in the evening.  That is a bit pathetic when so many single parents live this lone parenting day in and day out.  To those of you in that position, bravo to you!

I, on the other hand, love knowing I will have support for the boys at the end of the day. My husband almost always swoops in and "rescues" me when he gets home from work.  I have literally told him, "I am done" as he has walked through the threshold and he has said, "Okay, just relax, I've got it."  Goodness, I love that man!  Normally when he gets home though, we just divide and conquer.  One of us takes the kids, while the other cooks dinner and then sometimes we swap part way.  It is a great balance.  But today the idea of having no "end" in sight is a bit daunting.  Which means, I have eaten and eaten.  I still have points left and there are always the extra points, but I am trying to save those for Sunday.  My hubbie and I will be celebrating our eleventh wedding anniversary by dropping the kids off at my in-laws and going to a movie and then wine tasting and dinner.  It should be very nice but I know I will eat more then my allotted points and since I have been anal retentive about my points thus far, I want to continue because it is working for me.

So, I need to pull myself together and convince myself that I do not need more to eat.  What I need is a nap and water.  Okay, first I need to get both boys to nap.  This is already in progress. I think my oldest is out but my youngest is fighting it again.  He is cutting teeth and can't seem to get comfortable enough to nap.  Poor little guy because what is happening is he is getting more tired from not napping and then can't handle his gum pain that much more.  Fingers crossed for naps.  Second, I need to get myself a bottle of water.  Check.  Third, don't look at the piles of clean clothes that need to get folded and just go nap.  I am putting on my blinders now and I am off to nap.  I hear the bed calling me or wait, is that my son???